Help?!?! I'm losing my mind....?

This is a really hard situation because what it seems like to me, is that you bent over backwards for someone that you thought was going to love you. The thing is that I think that he really only was there when you had something to offer him, and now that you don't he is ready to flee the scene. You are really in a mess and especially because the friends you once had, are no longer there for you because of him. I would contact them and ask them for forgiveness and let them know that you need their help. I would let him leave. It is going to be hard but you know that in the long run, you will get the things that you lost back. All of that are material things and can be replaced. Get your self confidence back and you will become the most attractive person in the world and he will want you back and at that point you will be able to say.....hell no!!! : )